Hey guys!

Hey y'all! Stynky here.


It's been almost exactly a year now since I quit growing. I wanted to pop back in and let yall know that I creep around the forums from time to time and am totally stoked that this wealth of knowledge is being kept alive!


I totally miss growing, but I've got a girlie now that takes priority over the 15 I used to have. Can't say I miss the trade off. But I still daydream about the time when I retire, the kids move out of the house, and I get to pursue my dream of growing the best pot ever seen again.


Fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on your perspective) I haven't found another medicine that works nearly as well as a good solid indica, but my condition has become more manageable. In fact, for the past year, I haven't had any abortive medicine at all, organic or pharmaceutical. The pain comes and goes, but the mental clarity stays. I could get my card again, but my girlie wouldn't let me grow myself, meaning I would have to let someone else make my medicine for me. And, let's face it, making it's half the fun (and 80% of the efficacy, since no one I'd find would let a lower yielding indica go a week or two past it's factory chop date to maximize CBD content).


It's a tough tradeoff, but I feel like a stronger person for kicking a habit that took over my apartment and social circles. Changing all that sucked, but I'm happy I got out of it now that all my old friends who I used to smoke and barter with are now either hooked on heroin or crack. Seems like I was the only one who was happy with good, kind buds. That is, other than you guys.


I guess what I'm trying to say is thanks for being here, year after year. Thanks for teaching me all the stuff I needed to know to be able to confidently apply for, work through, and graduate from college (I'm done in less than 6 weeks) instead of going on permanent disability for a chronic pain condition that doesn't respond to conventional medication. Thank you old timers for helping me make something out of my life.


I'm an effing poster child for medical marijuana. And I have you guys to thank for showing me the way to figure out what works and how to produce it. And now, a year after I quit using it to manage my condition, I'm able to succeed in life because I got through the hard times... with a lot of help from some good friends and some good buds.


Keep posting! Keep growing! Keep maintaining! It really makes a difference.


~Sirstynkalot

 

kkkk!!!


t6

 

I read the whole post and it sounds like things are going well for you! But the quote above is what struck me the most.


I have a lot of respect and admiration for you, a complete stranger, after reading that sentence. Much the same thoughts have been occurring to me lately regarding my own life. I'm a different person than when I began growing, with different circumstances. I'm no longer sure I want to live my life deceiving everyone I love, or filtering who I choose to let into my life, just so I can continue growing a plant.


Anyway... thanks for posting this. It is very encouraging to see that someone else is/was in the same boat as me, and came out on top. Good luck in life brother.

 

Resin, I ended up getting my stuff back about 6 months after they took it. I never got any cash compensation, and I didn't feel safe growing again at the time because the patient I was a caregiver for ripped me off. In other words it was sorted out, but not with a very favorable outcome. As for a caregiver of my own, I have a person lined up who I've taught to grow basically as well as I can over the last couple years, and he wouldn't charge me to do it. I'd be doing him a favor by legally protecting his 3k watt grow op.


The problem isn't getting someone to grow, it's whether or not I want to start smoking again. It was a really hard habit for me to break the first time around, and even if I started using it purely medically I'd be worried about it getting out of hand. It's just how I have tended to use the substance... It's hard for me to tell at first when I am getting a migraine compared to just being overtired and not wanting to get out of bed, since they feel similar. But if I didn't smoke right at the onset of a migraine, nothing stops it. It ended up just getting tiresome to HAVE to wake and bake every day out of fear, and then HAVING to smoke more throughout the day to make sure I didn't get an even worse one in the afternoon too. Then, come evening time, I already smoked all day so I may as well finish it off with a blunt in front of the tv. It was a real blessing to be able to consistently function when I'd been out of commission 4-5 days a week before (in crippling pain), but the costs (sometimes medically and sometimes just from my shitty logic) kept increasing to the point where I was probably high for about a year straight. As it is, I'm happy just watching you all grow successfully and translating my skills to growing the best organic vegetables and cooking herbs I can It's a way for me to enjoy and connect spiritually with my plants without having to run any risks. Although I will say my neighbors think I'm a little crazy for turning my apartment porch into a big, hand watered garden.


Ognennyy - It was a hard choice. But what I've gained in terms of mental ability, self satisfaction, and safety within my inner circle of friends was worth it. I wouldn't necessarily suggest everyone do it - I know a few folks that couldn't pay rent if they weren't subsidizing their income, and a few more who couldn't work without their medicine. But for purely recreational reasons, what it came down to for me was internalizing the question every time I started wanting to smoke again, "Why do I want to do this?" I couldn't come up with a good reason. Maybe you can, and maybe you can't. Either way, I wish you the best! And I trust you'll do what's best for you.


And T6, thanks for the warm welcome back! It's always awesome to see what you have to say and show I keep checking back in for your and Skuzzi's avatars if nothing else