I saw where useless had his fucking shit...sorry bro i feel your pain esko had his..fucking sad..dammit!!! and i got mine...shit..im glad that year is over. I had some big time personal shit go down, for a while i was in shock I could find no joy in anything, my grow room dark and cold..plants just dead in there... I have learned a lot about shit i thought i knew, and about myself. Fate took my stupid ass down a few notches, it maybe for the best... Anyway i want to start over again, a fresh new beginning here and in my life. I hope all of you are well, and safe. My friend always makes sure i have seeds, i have many projects coming and in the works now. If it were not for my friend i may have ..i dunno..it was very dark then, but we talked a lot late, when i was all alone my friend propped me up..made me keep my mind looking up away from the dark. He sent me many things, and ill show them here. I have santa maria, cheeseberry x Santa maria shiva...shiva haze...holy princess..blueberry...Chocolate rain...i have a lot of stuff its going to be a fun year and im expecting to be a part of the mexican project...i will share that here as well. Also..as killer if not more so...many many rare and special veggie seeds for the garden thread this year...going to fucking awsome Good Karma to you all, i tell you..life ...Pour yourself into it..thats my motto from now on...if i pissed you off before forgive me, life has changed me a lot in the last 6 months, I have dropped the pretentions of it all..fuck it..shit aint supposed to be hard..we make it that way Peace growkind
Thanks man, ya its been a trip but its getting better now. I have the kids one week tues thurs all day and friday till 6 the other week tue thurs fri sat and sunday...i got my possee back were down one but were alive and well. Going to be a fun and exciting new year...lots of new stuff.. lots of learning, but thats what i love about eskos gear... you dont need a lot of fancy struff..LOW nutes means just that hell i give em just water now and they look so much better You can see the difference in how chem force em to bud big... on the one hand a good thing...but now i see what she does all on her own...heheh Peace man what im up too now
I am labeled an alcoholic, my favorite uncle died, and I am having another surprise child at the age of 30. My oldest is 11. Fuck it all, grow some fucking weed.
Yep. Wanna Be all this stupid god bull shit you people use to make your lives feel better. Grow some weed for the ones of us who can't.
2012 wasn't a great year here either. My oldest daughter's best friend took her own life and the emotional roller coaster has been a nightmare. Her family is healing as are we. We came close to losing our house with me being laid off twice in two years, but we're blessed with great parent's who were able to help us out of a hole. My daughter has a new best friend and my job is stable. My wife is trying to go back to work and our bills are getting caught up. 2013 is starting to look bright and I look forward to all of us here on GK having a great year.
Hugs to all my guys. I too had a fucking shitball of a year. I could talk for days, but in a nutshell the guy that I still swear is my fucking soulmate... well, it turns out he's still in love with his ex. A big nasty squall of a storm going on in my brain and my heart. I too have been in a very dark place lately, and I'm just starting to see my own light, which is the only light I really need to see and reach towards. Cheers to 2013, and remembering that each trial we go through in life does really make us stronger. The way I see things like this - we have a very simple choice. We can wallow, and drag ourselves through pain over and over again, and never allow ourselves to heal. Or we can look at it and take all the lessons about life and ourselves that our trials offer us. Each time we experience deep pain, anger, regret, sorrow, and the like, we have the amazing chance to better ourselves. But we have to make that choice to do that. Life truly is like the changing seasons - where there is deep, dark, winter, sure enough spring will show up, and fill our lives with light again. GTWT :XXhippylove:
I miss a lot of my pals on there, but that fucking place has caused me more anxiety & problems in the past two years of my life, I finally pulled the plug. I feel a little disconnected though - being a social hermit, places like GK and FB are my pathetic way of having friends. Fuck Facebook. That is all. GTWT :XXhippylove:
My 2012 wa all change. All good, but hard work all the same. New job, new house and new baby. I'm living on a building site and I can't afford to finish it off yet but it's all good. Bring on 2013 and let's see what it brings!
The mountain tops of life can only be truly appreciated by walking through the valley of death........ Mad Max
