Life as a nurse at a D&A detox/rehab is very stressful:BangHead: Drinking vodka every night after work seemed to help. My boss noticed how short my fuse was getting. She noticed the same OCD as with her husband. I took her suggestion and asked my Dr. for Lexapro. Lexapro is for depression & anxiety. I'm sure the depression was mostly the alcohol, but I've always been wound tight. First few days I felt stoned; one tech even said I looked that way My boss said I could take time off to detox, but I did it while still working. It SUCKED! No energy/ambition the first 72 hrs. (normal), but by the 6th day of Lexapro and I woke with a smile on my face that wouldn't go away :thumbsup: As a man, it's hard to admit you need help, but I apparently need the med. I feel like a new man! My day off yesterday, I didn't get loaded and take a nap, but I finally saw a diabetes Dr., got the boys groomed/shaved, and went home and took my parents to supper! Best, most productive day I've had in yrs. Here's the shit. Due to the alcohol, I'd been neglecting my gardening severly! Looked in finally and I lost all my SA & RM clones. Two in flower are gone. One that was finished sat too long under the light and is fried! Guess I'll finally be making more cookies Pisses my off because they were clone only. I was gonna order seeds (haven't in 6-7 yrs.), but the same source is sending me 2 different Kush strains. MG sent me a link to a nice looking Kush, but they're already in the mail, so I'll wait and see what's up. Just thought I'd put that out there, so you know why I've been such a douchebag for so long. Cheers :thumbsup: Oh yeah! I'm meeting my friend this morning, who has THE tattoo shop in town. We're coming up with a design of my Rotty's for a tat on Sat. Won't be able to send pics. 'till I get a new camera, as mine took a shit. Any suggestions on a simple camera that's just for macro shots and will accept a tripod? Thanks!
Is it the med or is it taking a break from drinking? I'm on day 19 of a one month break from drinking and I have been feeling better and better too. Getting all kinds of shit done. :goodjob:
Ahhhhh,right makes sense now:tvlaugh: Just fuckin with ya. Thats some good shit man. Hank makes a valid point,could be a combination of the two. Iv been on form recently myself with work,home life. Shit even been doing DIY. I havent drank Vodka for a few months now. Only beers and only a 4 pack at most. Just weed and few bottle of beer. Sometimes all we need is a burst of positivity to get us back on track again man:thumbsup: Although sounds like that jobs taking it out ya man
Glad the med has been helpful for you. It is hard to understand how they work in our heads. The doctors barely understand it themselves, but sometimes they can be a lifesaver. I have never been on lexapro myself but I can remember the first time I was on a steady med for a long time that was correctly prescribed, it helped a lot. It should even get a little better if it has only been a little over a week. Happy you are feeling better. I don't have any camera suggestions but I love the idea of getting your dogs as a tat. Something I always considered. Maybe someday
Mr Astro, it's good that things are getting back on track for you. It sucks "waking" up and seeing what has really been going on. I too, have lost a few things not to long ago. Admitting that we "need" prescription drugs can be hard. Very hard. Especially when it comes to depression. It's a deep, dark hole to crawl out of. Glad you had a big enough ladder to get out of it. Good luck.
Booze can exacerbate anything. Fuckin' low dose poison is all it is. Good to hear you found some happiness MrA. Life's too short to go around sucking hind tit..
Stop knocking my drug of choice! lol one day i'll stop, just not right now. Glad youve managed to sort your shit out :thumbs-up:
Good job MrA. I am down to six-eight beers a night which is amazing for me, seeing a counselor, and about to go to a Dr. to get myself off these fucking Benzos, and if need be on something that actually helps me. But even just cutting back on alcohol makes me more productive. It is hard as hell, but it makes a world of difference one day to the next.
When you cut back on the booze you give your head time to process whats actually occurring round about. Some de-clutter time. People may laugh but i always try get some meditation time in everyday. Just no phones,computers or tv's. Process shit. When you drink you dont get that process time. We are ALL more productive and enjoy life more when we drink in moderation. At the time we are under the illusion drink is making life bearable but its actually stealthily doing the opposite.From my experience at least:jj: For me spirits and beers is a HUGE difference. Like class A's versus class C's or some shit:bong2:
The depression is definitely from/made worse from the booze. I good friend who drank heavily (dead last yr. from heart attack) always said "booze is no damn good for you". I do need the med for the 'anxiety'. I've always been hyper & OCD. I need everything in it's place. It drives me nuts at work when the nurse I relieve leaves things a mess! This shit has mellowed me out. First few days, a guy at work said I looked stoned! Alcohol IS poison :thumbsup:
Right on. Not one for pharmaceuticals but, they do seem to work for some. If ya feel good that's all that counts. I hope that's something (the Lexapro) you could ween off of totally? IDK what it's about, figured I'd ask. The hard alcohol is definitely a downer. I rarely touch the stuff. Not enough calories in it for me. :thumbs-up:
Whew man, Lexapro is heavy shit. I took that about 5 years ago, when I got a divorce. I honestly can't remember much of that time period in my life. I think partly because of the anti-d's, and partly my brain doing that whole 'self preservation' thingy... Had to go back to the doc recently and get some. She first put me back on Lexapro, and fuck all that zombie business. I went back and got a lower dose, and of Prozac. It's been treating me well. I feel like I lost months of my life (before I was taking it), but it's been good lately. I have dealt with depression all of my life, and I can usually take care of myself, but severe acute incidents really can do me in. I too neglected my garden, but luckily my SA momma made it to the other side. Now have several cloned and ready for flower soon Glad to hear you're feeling more like yourself. There's nothing worse than realizing one day that the past ______ months you HAVEN'T been with it, and you feel like you've wasted that time in your life. GTWT :XXhippylove:
I grew the SA long enough; just bums me out, as it was a gift. Same source is sending my a shitload variety of new strains when I only asked for 2
Oh? And what new strains might he be sending you? Curious what you'll have in your garden soon... GTWT :XXhippylove:
KO Kush Killing Kush Heri Indians Teamsters Special Orange Chocolate Rain (from Eskobar) Eskobar's Blueberry and a few others he forgot, but sent. I asked for two!!!
