As most of you know I am battling cancer. It has progressed to the point I am now under Hospice care. I no longer have the energy to care for my garden. I will be tearing down the grow closet in the near future. It will be a sad day when i do that. Growing gave me pride in my product. It helped me build some wonderful friendships here on GK. I will miss all the joy growing has brought me. Unfortunately i was not able to properly care for my last grow and it suffered. So its time to give up the craft. I truly want to thank all of Growkind for its support over the years. It was GKs members that guided me along on my first grow. Thus making it a resounding success despite spraying entire garden with deep woods off. Lol I also want to mention the AMAZING support ive received from members in my fight with cancer. From emotional support to financial donations to donations of Rick Simpson Oil its been wonderful. All of you have been so willing to help its overwhelming. The members of GK have restored my faith in humanity. THANK YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH BB214
I am sorry to hear that bro, I really wished there was more we could do to help. I hope you are able to hang out in the forms with us.
Bb, that sucks. I mean it, it really does. I wish I could do something to help you out. I hope you still have the strength and fortitude to keep coming here to GK. You've been a staple since you got here and I have enjoyed watching you learn new ways of growing, especially the way without the Deep Woods off. They grew so much better without it. Hang in there.
fight ain't over yet....and youre not done until we see you puking from dab hits march right around the corner, you're going to have to grab me from the airport
Dude......I'm sorry to be the one.....you were a freakin' mess when you first joined up. It seemed two or three times a day I was saying, "No, really its cool. Everything is gonna be fine, just leave the garden alone for a few days. No really, don't do *anything*. Leave it alone....I said stop fuckin' with the garden." Then... the in next day or two a PM would arrive. "Res, I fucked with the garden....now what?" You'd be precise in explaining everything you did. Exactly what you used, and how much of what when. That's when I knew you were gonna be an excellent grower. But once you figured shit out...you been schoolin' me the past couple years.:redbong:
Yeah res you talked out of a lot. I had no freakin clue. I had the FAQs but was lost. Ive never schooled you my friend. But thank you for the compliment
I'll beg to differ. :bong-2: Many is the time I've had to :read2: then :read2: some more to keep up with the stuff you were trying and asking. Think I know all that shit off the top of my head? Hardly.
Thanks everyone for the support. It means so much to my fiance and me. We feel blessed to have friends like you.
Hey, BB...what state r u living in anyhow man? There are internet friends and then there are actual life friends...we haven't been the best of internet friends but id give you the shirt off my back in real life man, just how you present yourself and your lifes story has had an effect on how I think about certain things. I appreciate your honesty with the path that your life has taken in the past few years, I admire your courage most of all. If you can...fill your bucket list up a lil more, try to make a last push if possible. If theres anything I could help with, in any form, let me know somehow I know the zone that my grow puts me into and im sure you'll miss that feeling too, heeeeey maybe you can come back as a ladybug and help me out a little in my rooms??:kidding:asssit: Be easy my dude, love your lady and snuggle with that puppy:thumbs-up:
BigBud214, I remember when you nuked the grow closet with deep woods off. :roffl::roffl::roffl::roffl::roffl: I never laughed so hard. :redbong: I'm always at a loss of words my friend on this dark subject. I lost a wife and a father to this. I've been fortunate in life to have met you in person and I'm a better person because of it. like CC said love your lady and snuggle with that puppy and know that were all here for you buddy. :thumbsup: :redbong:
Man, it sucks when you have to quit doing something you love. It's been fun watching you grow some beautiful plants! I wish all the best for you and your family.
CC Thanks man. I am keeping both the puppy and the lady close. We are trying to enjoy what we can. It truly is a day by day thing. MrG Im glad we met as well. You are a generous and giving person. There really are not any words for this. Im honestly scared for how it all plays out. Im afraid of just wasting away.
I think we all are really. We all have a guess, but nobody really knows how this shit goes down. As an outside observer, your grace far exceeds what I think mine would be. asssit:
Thanks Res... It would be easy to get down and be miserable. I just dont think that would benefit anyone. Id much rather try and make the best of it. Just maybe ill get to make a memory for my lady, put a smile on my face or just have a nice quiet day together. I dont think any of us know how we will react to this situation. I always thought id just eat a bullet if i got a terminal illness. The thought has never entered my mind the past 18 months. So I say we dont know how we will act in a situation untill we are in it.
Man, I wish I could put into words how I feel when I think about ya. If it were as simple as fixing you up with a big bag of buds you know I would. But we know it's more complicated than that. I'm still gonna pick out some big sticky sweet ones and set them aside with your name on them. And God willing, we'll find a way. Stay strong dude, we're praying for you!!!! Be Cool, CG
Very sorry to hear that things are going the way they are. I know I am not on much these days, but I am praying for you.
