Greetings all...am out...trying to stay straight...keeping busy...feels wierd as hell...couldn't put in the whole 2 months...detox was just short of a refugee camp this side of China...looking forward to HBO and pizza...takin it one day at a time as they say...stay tuned for more after this pepperoni and cheese...
Glad yer out chops.....is it just weed you were haveing trouble with?...or coke,opium,smack,ect.just curious mang. Bud3
I had no idea you were even IN detox Chop. What's up buddy? You still growing or no? Damn I hate being away so much.....look what I miss out on!
hey chopstick, being in the real world is a crazy place after a treatment session. eh? i think you know what i mean. the best help i can offer for you trying to stay clean is always play that negative tape when you have a craving or think you want it. dont think about the feeling, its just a temporary fix anyways. think about how you felt and acted on it, what your home life was like, how people around you felt about your use. If you have kids man, i hope you can keep it real, they dont want their dad in the gutter. other than that i cant help, except to say that relapse isnt an event. You dont go to the bar and relapse. Relapse is your train of thought before you get slammed. saying things like just this last once to say goodbye. or if i shoot a little it wont phaze me. anything along those lines is relapse thinking. For me, i have been going to AA meetings at least 3 times a week, and most importantly i flipped the bird to all the people who get licked with me. my friends who want to get wasted all the time dont look out for me when i am trying to stay sober. but yea....i have alot of this stuff fresh in my mind, treatment was a huge event for me. i think i am clean from all chemicals a month now. pm me is ya want to talk about this wonderful thing called life. glad your back chopstick. missed ya.
Hey chop. . It WILL fell weird for a while. Stay strong! I KNOW that there are a LOT of people here who are pulling for you 100%. Myself included. BTW, save me a slice!
the world sucks. it fucking blows. shoot it up. get fucking stoned. dont be a bitch.. just let it go.. the world sucks.. we are alone.. there is no sense. in going on.. the worlds blurred.. you'll carry on.. a better time.. without being here.. a bigger influence... not being near.. breathe in the world.. then let it out.. the time spent here.. was lived aloud.. youve shed your skin.. and realized.. the world sucks. and we all die..
Chopstick if you are speaking of an addiction other than with pot then I know where your coming from. I was an opiate addict for a long time, addictions are not worth the pleasure you get from the drug. If we could have a lifetime supply and nobody to disapoint then I would think differently about this. My addiction brought me to jail. for robbing a pharmacy of dilatin, morphine, oxycontin, demerol and a couple other severe pain killers. It took me this long to realize I had hit rock bottom. And the next month of my life was absolute hell. If I could have hung myself I would have. You might not have had such a horrific experience with your drug of choice but thats not the point at all. The point is that EVERYONE is powerless over their drug. do whatever you need to do but please dont go back for anyreason. Build
Thanks for the support, been out of the loop, not just here, but in my life also. Not at all happy about how things went down, but as this isn't the first time I've been through the process I guess I shouldn't be so hard on myself, it helps puts a smile on my face to know you guys are still around and hoping things go well for me too. Seems although I'm not the only one that understands how hard a serious drug habbit can be to kick, not many folks round these parts realy understand, or even care to, so it's nice to get some understanding once and a while Still doing ok, but as to be expected, I have my bad days, my good days, and my even worse days, lol. The grow has been shut down, along with the rest of my life, can't wait to start putting the puzzle that is my life, back together. Pluss I know exactly where the grow room piece goes now! Keeping my fingers crossed and trying not to venture too far from home base at present. Doesn't feel like I've been here for as long as I have, but a lot of you definitely feel like family, cheers
...cheer up Jackie, things only get better, ...every silver cloud,has a black lining, specially number 9,
Hey Chop..was just thinkin' about ya yesterday. You at least sound optimistic about things right now. That's a good thing buddy. Sometimes we have to clean the slate to get back on track. I'll be doing the same real soon only in my own way. Best of luck to ya man. It's hard being a giant in a land of midgits dude.
hey chops..ive never really had a problem with drugs, soo i cant say i know where ur coming from...but hope all is going well, and good luck to you. my prayers are with you
