County Jail for the weekends

After over a year and a half of fighting a case that I had due to an ex girlfriend, I have settled on having to do 29 days in jail. Do to my job I have been fortunate enough to do my time on the weekends, thats a lot of weekends for me to do..
I was with this girl for 6 years, and have had nothing but problems through out our whole relationship. maybe being that I am 29 and she is 35 little age diff. She always ended up meeting some other guy along the way. Whenever things went bad seems like she would always go out and spread her legs for some other fella. I still miss her a lot. She is the first thing that I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before I go to bed..I think that there is something wrong with me. The guys that she would fuck didn't do it for her either thats why she always comes back. I haven't talked to her in about 8 months. I keep waiting for my phone to ring but it never does. Seems like whenever she dumps me she changes her number. Then all of a sudden out of the blue she calls.. I always go back to her. She hasn't called yet and my gut is telling me she is not gonna call this time. I have met a lot of 3 oclock slop as of late and still can't forget about her.. Infact my anger towards women comes out on the new girls that I meet as of late.. I don't want to be alone either that way I have more time to sit and reflect on why I hate my life and the older I get the worse I feel. I think I am just kinda killing time untill I die.. All the pot in the world doesn't seem to bring a smile on my face..
Just thought that I would vent and share. Being this is as close as I will get to theropy

I have a lot of things going on in my life right now, good things, things to look forward too, but I am still left with this empty feeling inside..Its not fun.

 

i find a change in career or location is always nice in that situation...Just remember plenty of women out there

 

dam man...that sucks. All I can tell you is that all these shitty things we go thru in life are suppose to teaching tools for us later down the road. You can use the time be become bitter and resentful or you can use the time to truely think about what decisions and actions YOU made that got you in this position and come up with a plan to keep it from happening again. Only a portion of the things that happen to us, either good or bad, are the result or cause of another person. The blame usually falls within ourselves for getting into these kind of postions, trusting when we knew better, allowing people to trample on us more than once and accepting it. We set a presedent with people very quickly after we meet them of what we will and wont accept. Those that got game, know how to run with it. I say find something that you are interested in or always wanted to learn about, prepair for your weekends with books, writing paper, whatever...and get something out of the time. That way, when its over, you wont have to look back at it and say I had to do time cause of that bitch. You can say " I learned a whole shitload about ________ cause of that bitch...THANKS BITCH".


And then...theennnn... some night when you see her out and about, carefully and discreatly, knock the bitch down in the street and stomp her upper grill with the heel of your shoe till shes flashing gums works for me

 

Hey Danny, Take it easy dude, I feel your pain! I been there and done that. It's tough, I know, but it will get better let me explain... I fell in love with a beautiful woman,( I thought ) and 6 months after we were married she became pregnant with another mans child! any way I left her and filed for devorce. I cryed like a baby! I could'nt get her out of my head, I felt like you. When I was at my all time low, I did seek professional help.


I saw a shrink three times, and it really helped, I never needed to see him again. I learned that I was'nt the problem but she was. I learned to stop thinking about her and let her go out of my life. Danny, you sound like a smart guy to me. My personal advice would be to do your best to move on because you better off with out her. If she does contact you I would tell her to not call you again, and then don't answer any of her calls, she will go away and you will be better off. You take care my friend.

 

Hope you're feeling better now MissS. Seems like you got some internal rage out there. LOL

 

Hey Danny, feel free to call me if you want to talk. <3 u dude. I'm sorry you are having such a bad run these days. One day, like I said, she will just walk right in and she will be right.


I'll be up for another hour or so (it's 3:44 our time).

 

The best revenge is living a good life, ie better than hers. I had my heart stomped once. We were very serious, albeit young 19. Looking back we were a little to young, I know I was. Anyway shortly after our breakup,and stomping by me of her new boyfriend lol she ended up pregnant. ( for the record I feel bad about the asswhoopin, all he was doing was trying to get some) She ended up having three kids out of wedlock, and then to top it all off she sitched teams LOL. I saw her last year. She was driving what looked to be about an 89 voyager lol, and carting around a gang of kids. She looked pretty wore down lol. Meanwhile I have a great wife,two great kids (that are mine),and a bad ass truck. Karma is a bitch.

 

Dannt there is nothing left to live for. Kill yourself. Just do it in spectacular fasion. And don't chicken out. If pining over some whore is all you have then your life is over.

 

stash,miss,mr,runz,canna,SFC.. Thanks for reading and the feedback. Its always nice to hear from the outside looking in


Fish haven't you ever loved before?? WTF

 

Sounds like you need a little Offspring in your tunage


Here you Go!!!!


SELF ESTEEM


I wrote her off for the tenth time today


And practiced all the things I would say


But she came over


I lost my nerve


I took her back and made her dessert


Now I know I'm being used


That's okay man cause I like the abuse


I know she's playing with me


That's okay cause I've got no self esteem


We make plans to go out at night


I wait till 2 then I turn out the light


All this rejection's got me so low


If she keeps it up I just might tell her so


When she's saying that she wants only me


Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends


When she's saying that I'm like a disease


Then I wonder how much more I can spend


Well I guess I should stick up for myself


But I really think it's better this way


The more you suffer


The more it shows you really care Right?


Now I'll relate this a little bit


That happens more than I'd like to admit


Late at night she knocks on my door


Drunk again and looking to score


Now I know I should say no


But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go


I may be dumb


But I'm not a dweeb


I'm just a sucker with no self esteem


Chorus

 

Hey man... I'm 25 too.


My story sucks. I got married to my HS sweetheart right after I joined the army. We got married, things were great.


When I got out of the army, our relationship went sour due to a lot of factors outside of my control. We got divorced.


We can't talk to each other any more; probably because we'll end up back together again.


Anyways, I still think about her every single day. She's run into some tough times lately (from what I've heard through the grapevine). And I wish I could at least talk to her and let her know that someone still hopes that she'll be doing OK soon. You never stop thinking about the people you have ever truly loved. You're normal. Just do your time and although you'll never stop thinking about her; it stops hurting so much to think about it after a while.


This particular song really reminds me of our ill-fated attempt at a life and marriage together.


[The Mountain Goats - No Children]


I hope that our few remaining friends


give up on trying to save us.


I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot


to piss off the dumb few that forgave us.


I hope the fences we mended


fall down beneath their own weight.


And I hope we hang on past the last exit,


I hope it's already too late.


And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here


someday burns down.


And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away,


and I never come back to this town again.


In my life, I hope I lie,


and tell everyone you were a good wife.


And I hope you die,


I hope we both die.


I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow;


I hope it bleeds all day long.


Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises;


we're pretty sure they're all wrong.


I hope it stays dark forever,


I hope the worst isn't over.


And I hope you blink before I do,


and I hope I never get sober.


And I hope when you think of me years down the line,


you can't find one good thing to say.


And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out,


you'd stay the hell out of my way.


I am drowning.


There is no sign of land.


You are coming down with me,


hand in unlovable hand.


And I hope you die,


I hope we both die.

 

Jesus christ....your fucking MEN. Suck it up pussies.


Ive had probs with girls and marriage. So what? Stand your ground and get the fuck over it. Its my way or the god damned highway. Dont whine.


Life goes on....as does karma....learn it,love it, and live it!

 

dude gorge is hitting on something ......... if you cant be happy with your self then you will never be happy with anyone ...... i was in love with a woman like that once .... just let her go .... just cause you love her doesnt mean she is good for you .........it will ger better and eventually that empty feeling goes away ......... but i would suggest you find out why your so attracted to somone with so many problems (when you do let me know cause i'm sure i suffer from it ) hope it gets better ......... p.s. that sucks about your weekends

 

thats bull sh*t tiberon ......... he's a man so what he doesnt have feelings.. what should all men do? take up drinking run from their feelings be hard ass's, dicks to there kids and pretend like nothing bothers them ....... ya its working real good so far ........ just look at socitety now!!!

 

Fuckin' A.


I'm not such a hardass when it comes to women. When you're sitting in a Humvee in Kosovo for the next six months, and the only thing you have to look forward to is coming back home to your wife, then you can talk to me about how I should feel about her.


When I married her, I thought that we were going to be together forever. She was all I wanted in a mate. And I lost her. And I'm disappointed in myself for the way it ended. , but it's kind of upsetting.

 

Im with shark,


If went crying to my parents ever about a girl, my dad would say "you not over her yet,"? and my mum would say "oh sweetie what have I TOLD YOU ABOUT TELLING GIRL YOU LOVE HER."


Its not that I am against saying I love you, but just after you fuck her, dont tell her you love her.


I know you people probably think people like Shark and My self can not love anyone, but your wrong, you must love your self first, and once you have mastered that. Then if you choose to put the love curse on a female, then be careful. I know I said I broke up with this new gf I had. well we got back together, the last thing I will ever say again is that I love you.


She is awesome, hard but awesome, those eastern block girls so much different then those girls that grow up in say indiana.


I gave up a local dutch girl for her, and really thats the difference between good, and uitstekend.


hope i didnt rag on you too much dude.


and for you danza, well your day will come.


I have no time for grasses

 

ya dude weekends r nothing. No big deal. It's like a vacation. You can find good hookups in jail too.

 

thankyou for stating the truth,and yea some BOMB CONNECTS

 

Tiberon,Fish let me guess you guys are located in the midwest where daddys fuck their sisters and mothers fuck their fathers.. So I guess you wouldn't have a clue.

 

Went thru a nasty divorce...Was more upset at the thought of not seeing my boys everyday than loosing the mrs...Easier said than done I know, but I think you'll look back on this and say, Jeez, why did I ever fret so much over this girl? Live it day by day bro, You'll be fine...If she runs everytime things get rough or boring, you can't count on her anyway, right....Never understood why guys put such high standards on their freindships but when it comes to women, we tottally lose sight of reality and what's really important.....Must be a cunt/cock thing...