My baby Cockatiel, Nessi (Renesmee), who I have been handraising for 7 weeks died this morning. I raised her since 4 days old as her parents were incorrectly feeding her & this is unusual as most Tiels are hand-raised from over 3 weeks old. This made her extremely tame and loving. I watched her for hours and hours, took her with me when I was to be gone long, set alarms to feed her, changed her bedding after each feed and so much more. She was ecstatic every time she laid eyes on me. I was her mom. It's my fault. I was and am extremely sick right now. I thought she was ok, she had eaten and drank by herself in front of me several times and I was still feeding her, but she was almost weaned and I thought she was ok just a couple more hours. I never even thought there was a chance she was not ok. She was running around just hours before. I found her dead when I got home from urgent care. I have never felt worse losing an animal. My other pets that died were very old and lived full happy lives and though I loved them and still love them very very much, it was their time and they went in peace. Nessi was just about a teenager if you counted her as human. Never got to grow up. So awful. Stupid fucking stupid me didn't think enough of her because I felt so sick. I will never ever forgive myself. I got a pretty box and flowers and broke a beautiful purple amethyst spirit quartz for her. I always pick a stone fitting for the particular animal and break it so we both will have a piece forever. I burried her with her pieces and kept one piece to keep together in a little shrine with some of her own feathers and the feathers and stone of my other passed-on and hand raised bird, the wonderful pigeon, Claire. The spirit amethyst quartz is to set Nessie's spirit free and release her fear. I told her she must grow up.....somewhere out there.... And fly. She looks just almost like an adult. My little perfect baby. Nessi oh Nessi I cannot believe I will never hold you again. Never again see you run to me. I held her beautiful little body for over an hour petting her and crying, smoothing her feathers and kissing her. She looks like she is sleeping on a bed of flowers with her shining stones. So perfect looking. My mom had to make me let her go to be buried with our passed on pets in their backyard. I cannot believe she is dead. She was about 1 week shy of weaned. She was literally the sweetest bird you could ever imagine, since she had to be raised by me from such an extremely young age. She was also the first bird I ever hand raised completely, as I rescued the pigeon Claire when she was already nearly a month old. Nessi would go to any human and love them. Fly In Peace my loving sweet Nessi. I am so so sorry. Renesmee, my loving Nessi 7/10/10-8/29/10 I feel blessed to have this picture, cellphone quality and all. I forgot my camera at home when I went to bury her, not that it takes anything much better. The stones and thought I put into the farewell to my departed loves does always help with time. Nessie's pieces of the Spirit Quartz will be with her forever along with a piece of my own heart and I will always keep a part of her and that same stone with my Claire's own feathers and stone piece (Claire's stone is the blue Lapis Lazuli which represents true beauty, tenderness, and love, perfect for my Claire. Gone from the world over a year and still I miss her terribly, I could ride my bike and she would follow in the sky, she was also one awesome bird. When people came to my door, she would land on the porch light and dance for them) "Spirit Quartz is a stone that is particularly helpful to assist the dead and dying. It may aid the journey of the spirit of the dying, helping them to make their way more easily to those waiting on the other side. For the loved one left behind it may provide comfort and ease their anguish."
I am so sorry for your loss Canna. Losing a pet is never easy. Love and good thoughts to you. Peace....
Aww Gee. I'm SO sorry for your loss and pain. I'm new here but your post moved me. From what I read, you did everything that you could for that little bird and you should not blame yourself. You were not the cause of her passing. It was unfortunately, just her time. I'm sure that she was happy for the love you showed her while she was alive. So be at peace. As long as your intent was pure, you are blameless.
So Canna. Loss of a pet is devistateing. I know how you feel as we just lost one of our dachunds. Take Care Teamster6
to hear Canna, I had hand raised a cockatiel as well and unfortunately lost it like you. Mine got sour crop. Again, sorry for your loss. RIP Nessi (Renesmee)
Thank you drl, vira, terminator and teamster. You words really mean a lot. I was checking over and over to see if anyone posted. It just helps me to talk about things, yanno? She was the best little bird. Aww shucks Vira thats hard. With her at least there really was no suffering (at least that I witnessed, and if there was it was not very long, she must have gotten dehydrated or something ). It is more difficult when you know they are suffering and you try and fail to help Teamster I am still really sorry about your losing your little Lotty love, and though it's slightly older pain, it never goes away, your little Adel as well. Thank you so much terminator for saying those perfect words. My intent was pure. I just made a mistake, and I will never make that one again. I just told my 10 year old niece who knows how I am with animals. Morgan, my niece, fell in love with Nessi, well really all my animals, and she considers me the coolest person alive. Hey I certainly am not but I do try to show her mistakes I had to make and learn the hard way. I am giving her one of my hamsters (she made a deal with her mom, my sister, and has cleaned the cat box every other day for 3 months without being asked).....anyways I am giving her one of my hamsters and I told her that even something like this can happen to Auntie. So we always have to know our animals have everything they need, because they cannot care for themselves. Never assume they are ok unless you know. If it can happen to auntie it can happen to anyone. She knows to always make sure those rodent water bottles work, as Auntie lost a hamster to an improperly working one before. Anyways, sorry, tangent. You guys got the water works going again. My other birds are outside singing, I wish she was there with them. Her death sparked a little something so they are all enjoying some nice treats this morning in honor of our baby Nessi. I have 6 Cockatiels (asked for 1 on craigslist, got 6 for free as long as I kept them all together, allowed visits, and promised if I ever could no longer care for them I would give them back to the woman who gave them to me, contract and everything :thumbs-up: ) 3 pairs of several colors, but all have their own quirks. One is senior and tho they mate all the time, she can no longer lay eggs, one pair is infertile and I don't know which is the infertile one, and one pair who ignore their eggs and usually they are layed outside the box and break. Nessi was our golden baby. I just wanted to hand raise one after a whole lot of hoping and dissapointment. I happened to see an egg precariously on the edge, layed by the stubborn female, and gave it to the infertile couple to incubate. They did a great job there but refused all soft foods and only wanted to feed Nessi seeds way too early. I promised Nessi I would put down something soft and catch one of her eggie siblings in the future and try again. If it's a boy he will be Jacob (only Twilight readers will get the reference). again, more tangents, like I said just writing it down helps a lot. Love you Nessi
Im sorry for your loss. I'm also an avid animal lover and know the pain you are going through. This too shal pass.. kind thoughts your way canna..peace.B4E.
i'm right there with you canna I lost a pet friday last friday She jumped a 6 foot fence and hung herself she was 14 months old she was born in my bedroom i just went in the house flashlight i had shortendher chain with a chain shackle i came out to feed her & noticed she had broke the shackle and in the 5 minutes it took to get the flashlight and new shackle out of the shop found hanging over the fence our youngest girl is just devastated she's 13 and spent most of the time with a dog yes sad times for sure canna sad times
Awww damn. Canna & Mt.king. Very sad losing pets. Far worse than humans imo. Someone should start a RIP/Rememberance thread with pics and kind words remembering for those we have lost....
Damn the day just got worse...or really a lot better? well, i guess it depends on how you look at it....I guess it may have gotten better if you think about it......yippedy doo da I have Mono. First a strep test (positive) and a Mono that I just got called about (also positive). So I am on penicillin for the secondary strep and I guess I just wait out this mono. Is it what is making food unpalatable or is it the strep? Cuz I can deal with the pain of swallowing from the strep and mono, its how everything feels like eating dirt that is giving me a hard time not vomiting acid over and over. The inability to eat nearly everything just started 4 days ago. Anyone have mono or mono and strep at the same time? Did the mono make it unpalatable to eat or the strep? Cuz i'm sure the strep will be gone in no time now... I wasn't trying to complain really....thread totally about Nessi....but I am actually happy, yes happy, that I tested positive for Mono. This almost certainly in my mind means that I was misdiagnosed as having developed allergies to my animals. I had a sore throat and more for more than a month. And we thought (doc thought) I was developing the allergies. He was like adament..... BUT I have been not able to eat anything in the past 4 days (everything looks/tastes/smells disgusting and is almost impossible to chew and swallow). It's not nausea that is making me sick, but lack of food in my stomach/system causing the nausea. Not just is food unpalatable but it hurts to swallow with the secondary strep infection. So I have not been able to eat cept liquids and very soft things or crackers that I break down with water in my mouth. And even then every swallow makes me wanna gag, not out of pain, but just it's so hard to eat because it just is so unappatizing. But now I know why I have been sleeping 10 hours, going out for like 2, and not being able to even stay awake an hour when I get home. And why I had/still have a sore throat for so long.....I would much rather have mono now (and apparently all month) than be allergic to my babies....so in a way I am really happy about this! But yanno....blah blah 'happiness' about having mono aside, anyone got any tips? I am having a really hard time trying to eat. And my stomach gets full of acid and i feel like shiat.....i tried odwalla protein shake things (better than jamba juice acidity wise, but still, acidic) and jamba juice (acidic), and some yogurts, but not having a lot of success. I keep getting too high on acid and throwing up which is killer on the throat and makes it even harder....damn I think I need to go pick me up some ensure! More upside, already was losing weight, dropped 7 pounds in 4 days thanks to this whole complete lack of appetite! Makes it around 33 pounds total or so Always an upside and if I really am not allergic to my animals and this sore throat does go away in time, it will be really, really excellent.
I had Mono and Epiglottitis at the same time when i was 18. I lost 40 pounds in a month! I could not eat ANYTHING for 2 months. I ended up in Intensive care for a week due to the epiglottitis making me unable to breathe, but even after I came home I just slept all day and couldn't eat anything. I went so long without eating that when i started eating again I remember that it had been so long since I h ad eaten that ketchup was SPICY to my mouth. It was gnarly! Good luck and try and drink some ensure. That was how I survived, try not to get dehydrated cuz IV's suck. Good luck girl, I hope you feel better soon. :thumbs-up:
garden best therapy I go walk my garden and I see my beans on the vine and strawberries cucumbers Mellons red and yellow raspberries about 35 varieties of peppers a dozen onions and garlics. Have to eat fresh salads tomatoes daily :droooling:
Thanks love! I am staying real hydrated. The Epiglottitis I have not heard of. Sounds crappy! But it's fun to tell people when you had gnarly sounding medical problems in the past (I had mastoiditis, thats my rare one!) The only way I have survived today was a big ass bottle of chocolate nesquik milk. That stuff seriously saved the day! Todays meals have been juice, gatorade, water and the chocolate milk. Nothing else is even kinda easy to eat, not too painful, just about as appealing as eating sour dirt. But if I drink the chocolate milk enough I can stay nausea free most of the day. And dude yeah rock on I am seriously losing hella weight, not too shabby. Gonna be 35 pounds tomorrow! Will be taking some time off though. Feel very weak and verrry tired. But, like, not bad really at all. Um, kinda good actually. Got some vicodin from the doc, my regular klonopin prescription which (surprisingly) I never abuse, and some good weed. And I don't feel hungry and the weight falls off? I should have tried the mono diet years ago.....
sorry to hear about your bird....was there any reason that it died....do you have a carbon monoxide detector in your house??? thats the first thing i thought of when i read your statement....birds are always the first to go when there is carbon monoxide present....id check for you own safety....sorry again for your loss canna....and i hope you kick the mono.
The intake of marijuana effects our lungs ,the brain, but we can overcome it by taking the proper food, fresh raw vegetables and fruits will be us good.
