Trying out for Survivor....

Ok I never told any of you this. Since you know the (before) before pics of me, and the mostly "after" pics of my "Put a face to the name" thread. But, since my fiance left me now about 4 years ago for my best friend and also during our relationship, I gained about 120 pounds. Up until about a month or so ago I had lost my period for over a year. They checked everything, everything. Put it down to stress. I think it was stress AND obesity, and morbid obesity at that. I started losing weight slowly when they put me on particular anxiety medications, and even more when I started seeing a real shrink, who, just last week - diagnosed me as BiPolar 1. And of course, my OCD is bad enough to also be on the show, Obsessed, in a heart beat.


In the past 7 or 8 months I have been losing weight at a steady pace. I just don't eat the same anymore, I only eat when i'm hungry, I was a huge emotional eater. In just the last few months it's been about 30 pounds (which is the only weight loss I have mentioned). I never posted a pic of myself when I was extremely heavy, and I never told you because of several reasons, top being you guys made me feel pretty when I did not and I felt ashamed. Now since about 3 years ago I have lost about 110 pounds, very close to my weight leaving HS. I played Water Polo and Swim team and have loads of muscle, I was in great shape. I only recently was able to start playing again. I also have extremely think bones....so I never have broken one but a toe! Ok Ok, I'll tell you SINCE......my "edge" for getting on Survivor will be my before and after photos and weights. And also my ultra charming personality and craziness...of course :angel4:

Think of the butt pic, thats the best shape I have ever been in (and hey the first time I posted it I still looked like that I think, not my fault all the boys keep reposting it!!! ). I weighed about 165. Think of the first pic in the picture thread....thats a few pounds ago. In between that I was about 70-100 pounds heavier througout the years. I got up to over 275, where I just stopped looking, (though because of genetic and athletic muscle and genetic bone structure, I looked on par with about 240).

Anyways, I now weigh 170 and look about 130 because of heavy bone and and muscle structure. I plan to lose about 10 more if I can.

I am an excellent swimmer and like I said, got back into water polo. My period came back, I actually think I will be able to snow board again this winter.

I have a few photos of the before for survivor, I will try to get the courage to take a picture of one and post it. You will see the after when I get around to it! The first pic I posted in "put a face to the name" is probly the day I made the thread, oh ok hold on i'll go check.....ok around august 15. Lost about 30 more in the last 2 months since then. I am getting a tummy tuck (extra skin, I know gross) and a boob job (correcting shape, evening them out, nothing over a C cup).

I don't think I will be ready for next season, the current season started wednesday. But I want to try the season after that. Other than my mental health which is controlled, there is really nothing wrong with me. I can swim and run and compete extremely well, and I have really only had one person ever hate me and it was for standing up for someone else. I have great people skills, and finally with these new medicines, I can really relate to people and not be anxious about it. I make friends everywhere I go because I talk to everyone, I would have to key that down so as not to annoy, just because talking to people at the store is different than talking to people you live with 24/7. I have watched every episode (21 SEASONS) more than 5 times and know the game inside and out. I am extremely competitive. I am extremely strong for a girl. I bench 150 easy.

So, thank you for listening.....I am glad I can finally be real with you guys. I am sorry I couldn't while I was losing. I have little self confidence (another thing that may work to my advantage if I use it right, everyone is always comfortable with me, all types of people, because they don't feel they have to be fake with me or try to get me to accept them, because I accept everybody because deep down I don't feel worthy of always being accepted myself)

Oh and, wish me luck

I'm hoping it runs in the family, my cousin is Ace Young from American Idol and my other cousin is Keith Gibbs, you can check his IMBD, he has not been acting recently, but just because he has settled down. Here, this is one of his clips. He is "Buddy"....and i'll post a clip of my other cousin, Ace (who's real name is Brett lol)

Keith Playing Bball with Kevin Bacon, who, btw, sucks at basketball in real life compared to Keith -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trioCSuW7Ac&feature=related

Ace Singing On AI -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHRNoI04veI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahRDuWMGp5k&feature=related (Falsetto at around 2:40, I challenge you to say Aerosmith's falsetto is better in his "Dream on"!!!!! You'd be a big fat liar )

 

Whoa.


Holy High Hard Therapy Session. lol I kid, I kid. I luvs ya Kojak.


You look great whatever you do hon. Go for it.


Btw...I know a Keith Gibbs..plays for a band called Sasquatch.


Guten Tag! Good Lucks!

 

Thanks dude! Different Keith I probly would never make it....but just trying out. I have always wanted to since season 1. And waited till I was old enough....and then did not have the fitness to do it. They have a token slightly overweight mom usually....but everyone under thirty has to be hot! They recently had auditions just down the road at Thunder Valley Casino, and I was sorry to miss it! I won't when i'm ready They had better not ever cancel it on me!


And when I finally was old enough, they lowered the age limit to 18!.... At least for one or two guys.


I will try out at 25, and 26, and so on!

 

Hey! When you get on SURVIVOR, we need a CODE or something so you can say "HIGH!" to us! Like...I dunno...hold yoiur two fingers in front of your lips and make the smokeing sound...Then WE will know it's YOU and everybody else will think....huh...I bet that girl smokes weed...."


LOL! Seriously, CONGRATZ on the weight loss and GOOD LUCK on Survivor. What will you do with the million bucks?


Dixie

 

Oh for sure I will do something. Perhaps I will temporarity tatoo GK between my boobs! I think they might cut out the smoking impression thing...we will have to think of something! hmmmmm i'll wink at every tribal council!


Ok no counting chickens before they hatch or anything...but I really have wanted to do this for such a long ass time!


Giving up weed though. I wonder if I could. Belive me I have already thought about sneaking some on there, tiny bit of hash? I don't know if I wanna be extra hungry and tired though! I guess that will just have to be one of my sacrifices and I have been wanting a good excuse to try and see if I could quit if I had to for a while now!


First thing I will do is report it to taxes...oh Richard Hatch, so stupid....and then I will buy a modest new (I hate repairs) house and put the rest in savings! I have no college debt, (excellent parents), and don't use credit cards (cept two I use a little bit just to establish some good credit). So it would be a perfect nest egg. I'd like to spend around 300k on a house so thatll leave me 200k to collect interest after taxes.


I could win, you never know...but I could be counted a threat and gotten rid of as the last "weak" player (women) before the tribes merge as I am a strong women. Even the first person voted out gets paid tho!


Thank you!

 

Like you Canna I've watched every Survivor but when Russell didn't win I swore I'd never watch it again!!!! Well you know that didn't happen . Good luck & I hope you make it on the show. Learn to make FIRE -Bud

 

I'll make sure to wear glasses (magnifier for those non-survivor watchers I know headcase knows!) and watch loads of Man vs. Wild to learn the stick method that works best if I can't bring them! I think I might need a prescription one of these days. I know it's coming. My whole family has shitty eyes and it comes on usually around my age or higher, right? I already learned how to use flint. I need something to do while fishing at my spot, flint is so cool!

 

And for all you fellow football fans like me....Jimmy Johnson is on this season :thumbs-up:

 

We think it is wonderful, your whole story reminds us of some hard times we went through so we can REALLY relate to the emotional eating and other issues that bring it on.


If you dont at least try for it, you will always wonder, what if? and wonder could you have done it.


We were a pretty good athlete played some football,but were too small for a scholarship, we went in the the military at 17, grew 7 inches and 35 lbs in less than two years We planned to walk on at University of Georgia to play, we never did it because of a newborn and us trying to play pappa.................ending rant here, but trust us we were pretty damm good.


We said that to say again GO FOR YOUR GOALS now while you can, good luck, we have never watched Survivor, but will do so if you are on it.

 

Thank you love! i'm sure you/them were pretty damn good!


You better watch it Yes, there will be a quiz!

 

Canna, congratulations! You deserve it. :thumbs-up: I hope make it to survivor, that would be great. :beerchug-2:

 

Thank you guys so much for the well wishes and for actually thinking I could have a shot! You never know! I need some ideas for an audition tape. Something funny.....once someone had their dog make it for them and they got it. I need something original and as unique as myself!


Oh Goblin I am soooo in the groove. When you feel better about yourself you just do everything differently! Paint my nails, shave my legs way more often lol, new and actually in style clothes which I have not worn in years! I hid away in sweatshirts and pjs for a long time. Now it's skinny jeans and cute tops! Everything is better. And all you need is to lose a little bit, then it kicks in...and every thought you have about food and excersize changes. Exercise is way easier when you are in shape Seriously I hate exercising and I love food. All you need is the motivation to start, and then you are off! No diets, just change your outlooks and it starts to kick in after the first pounds you lose. Good luck to anyone else struggling with weight. I am always on your side. I know how it feels to think every person is looking at you and your fat, and to want to hide away. But darkness does clear, even when it seems it never possibly can. Good luck any of you in the boat!


Also, I will suggest the merged tribe name to be the Rastafarian term "IRIE". They always come up with crap ones. If I make it to merge I will suggest that one. I think of it, like many others, as I Respect I Eternally. There are many other meanings as well. Basically, it means feeling good and having a positive outlook. I think every tribe needs that! This is something I had to learn to do over again and hold dear to my heart!


I respect I eternally, mon.


I'm almost sure I will have daughter and name her Irie as well. Love it!

 

holy crap Canna, you´ve come a long friggin way! I mean I´d be happy to lose just 20 pounds, so what ever your doing, you´re doing it right. It would be totally cool to see you on Survivor, especially with a secret message to our growkind brethren. I haven´t seen Survivor for a long time, but I do know what it takes to win. It takes somebody strong and valuable, but not such a dominating strong as to threaten the others. It takes some serious social skills, and a sharp knife to stab in someone´s back. And it takes a good personality with a bit of crazyness, just for the viewer´s enertainment. I totally agree about going with the emotional story for the auditions, and I´d also play out your love for pets and your nurturing of puppies....everybody loves puppies


Thanks for sharing such personal things with us, and good luck with the auditions

 

That's great Canna


Now, where's the updated BUTT PIC???? :droooling:

 

here, here....:thumbs-up:

 

Congrats Canna!!


Canna,


First of all little sis, your inner beauty is always going to shine thru on days you think you are less for that pretty face is only a taste of what lies within you. You have grown, making such positive changes in your life & I am so proud of you. Weight loss is like kicking any habit, it is hard so congrats because it means you have set goals which you accomplished! Bet it was fun going clothes shopping for new stuff!! I have always been the tall big bone girl so I hear ya on that one. Yanno the hip bones that stick out or clavicle bone...haha even my ankle bones are prominent. Never was into dieting, just try to eat healthy, be active & don't get too skinny to where you lose muscle is the key. Not a red meat eater here so I basically only eat chicken, turkey seafood, fruits, healthy cereal, multigrain bread, lots of veggies and I drink more water then a camel..lol Yah I cheat for I love chocolate & my fave is salsa with dorito's or tortilla chips. Think the one way people can keep weight down is drinking water...then some more water until you feel like you will bust! And one day when you have that little girl you want>>just breast feed and the weight comes off fast!


Anywhos, hope you make it & glad you are determined to follow those dreams for without a dream, the future would suck eh? What would one have to look forward to? Your a compassionate, sweet, loving, intelligent, kind young lady who is truly gorgeous inside/out so never sell yourself short. Believe in you! If you don't love or think your good enough, hard to find others who will too. We create our own happiness in life, we are born alone, die alone but in between the two, we live life surrounded by others who make it more fun! Surround yourself with people who love you as you are.... I will be rooting for ya girl!! Love Dixie's tip on a code too!! hehe


Excited for you.....truly am!! You go girl!! :anibong:

 

Thank you mermaid and all and everyone! Sis you are so sweet, me loves ya! I will say it again too.....THANK YOU for Sookie Stackhouse. LOVE trueblood LOVE the books LOVE ALL Charlaine Harris' other books. I use the audiobooks during exercise! So in a way you helped me lose weight! Also I have read over 30 or her books since you told me last year on the phone, thats a solid year of my entertainment. I LOVE YOU


more butt pics eh....someday I will take some and you will be the first to know! Thats all you get! I will probly have to send them to someone's email. I'm sure someone will volunteer lol. Or you can just wait to see me on survivor :angel4: They are always practicly naked by the end!

 

Sooooo if it's ok with mods i'd like to post a body shot. Just shows boobs, rest fully clothed. Cuz I am almost ready, bout 20 more lbs I think, and probly a tummy tuck that is nessecary). Plus, I promised I would someday post an after pic, (yeah I will post a before pic someday too I guess), also I promised a double boob shot.....and well. I just happen to have one. As resin said I guess it is ok for a member to throw an occasional soft-core shot?


Anyone on have an email I can send it to? My email has an underscore and my cell does not. You can post it here (ok don't make it full screen though!).....i'd give ya some rep for the help!

 

Yea we've been waiting along time where's it at- Bud


P.S. I'll give you rep point if it's up in the next hour